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Name: Sean
Location: Atlanta, Georgia, United States
Birthday: 12/13/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: -girls that never seem to be interested in me, despite first impressions....
any indie music such as the early november, death cab for cutie, the postal service, taking back sunday, underoath, he is legend, mae, umbrellas, format, showbread, audio karate, maxeen, motioncitysoundtrack... and do i really have to name any more?.... umm...lets see im really into swimming which contributes to me enjoying lifeguarding ... when i have spare time, writing and sketching anything usually passes that time away... photography works well too... and as of a year ago, my guitar takes up time in my life
Expertise: confusion... bad luck with girls? the worst at first impressions... and even worse at second
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  somethinggreen87
MSN: seventhfloorbalcony@hotmail.com
Member Since:
2/10/2005
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| its been forever and my fingers have grown more accustomed to strings rather than the keys of my laptop, this feels new, and in a way, exciting... i dont know what to write about, but to be writing is enough... whether or not anyone reads this, my fingers feel at home here.
alot has happened, good and bad, but right now, life feels like the end of a roller coaster, where it evens out and feels more peaceful than anything else... however, im dying for that adventure right now, those twists and turns and loops, hell, id even do it backwards if that made things interesting
i want to do something fun and daring and new, i want to meet new people and and catch up with old friends, i want to swim in new waters, and lay in a new patch of grass...
maybe its this music im listening to, but im doing nothing but reminiscing over past things and people, and things with people... and places, oh definitely places... this cd playing right now, its new to me, but it feels so nostalgic, it tastes smells sounds and feels way too familiar, like my entire past rolled into one lump something... its good and bad, i see my mistakes along with it all as well... i wonder where id be if i had pursued another path or chose someone else to follow
what if i had started playing guitar at an earlier age?
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| the skies are clearing... both literally and metaphorically... i know my place now and things are just fine... just peachy (ive never used that word... now im wondering if i sound odd or not... weird)
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| ive been enlightened... my eyes have been peeled open with this newfound sight... its like seeing without eyelids... theres no room or even ability to blink, and therefore, you can catch every second of everything going on around you... except theres just one thing... that one thing is: theres only one thing im focusing my sights on... only one person
now i dont see anything wrong with this... but apparently others do... apparently some people can be offended by my current blindness to other things... and for that, i can only apologize and promise to make it up to you, and promise you that some day you too will see what im talking about
now to elaborate on that first statement...
a day can go as bad as possible, as bad as the day may desire to go, but at night, when that one call comes through, the ring bouncing off all corners in the room, the lights flashing, the name displayed, the sudden awaking from that dreamlike state, only to fall into another upon the answering of that phonecall... now its then, when youve been looking forward to this all day, that the sweetness of the shortness of that conversation is savored... just because it ends with "have a goodnight, i love you"
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| so here i am... a graduate... with no idea what im going to be doing or where im going to be going... the one thing thats actually on my mind is the question of why in the world im actually awake right now... that and the hunger pain in my gut... i guess im focused on the here and now instead of the far off... that mind frame will kick me in the ass later... im just waiting for it... waiting, not preparing... speaking of preparing, im not one to do that... im not one to pack for trips, or to plan for vacations or days out... im not one to prepare period haha
that too will tear me up later on...
you know how you get that feeling that you may be digging your own grave... its an inevitable feeling... you just cant deny the dirt flying over your shoulder and the shovel in your hand... its as evident as this full moon were having...but yes... im digging my own grave and i can feel it... somethings out to get me... and if its not karma, then i have every reason to be afraid... it IS after all the unknown that seems to scare everyone the most... so i thought id elaborate on that feeling in my gut before i begin
so school is over... the summer is here... and this time around, i decided to stay close to home... there are numerous reasons why, but really only one in particular... ill elaborate on that later...... so i knew that if i were to stay here i town, id need to find a job... and so i did... im currently working at the country club here in griffin... this place is seriously the most slack job ever... i get paid to sit on my ass and tan all day...oh and did i mention the free food... yea, one free meal per shift... and that includes anything on the menu... i cant complain with the job... but my hours suck... i get the night shift most of the time and not to mention i dont get too many hours all together... and i need all the hours i can get... so right now, im kinda searching for a new job... i think ill be going for a job at the city pool... im sure theyre fully staffed, but its worth a try
well, my reasons for staying are simple enough... i stayed here to be close to my friends before they all run off to college and before i do the same... my salvation army friends will be easier to stay in touch with due to the fact that well see each other at territorial events and divisional events and what not... plus all of our parents are pretty much in touch... so i decided to stay here for the above reason... and for a few more... but really, only one... and this reason is what made up my mind... its because of her that i stayed close to her... its partly because of her that im here in town and not up in jasper or north carolina... the pay isnt as great, but im close to her... and thats what matters to me... thats what really matters to me... and i have to say that my decision is so worth it... its oh so worth it
the things a girl can do to a guy...
so... im determined to take a trip to some kind of music festival, or some concert, or a beach or waterpark or even someones house... i just want to make this summer my best summer ever! anything to make it memorable.... anything to make it stand above the rest... so far it already is just because of her, but i want to seal it off with the best of... of... anything! theres got to be something to make this more unforgettable than it already is
any ideas?
so its late... which may explain my ranting... well im off to bed... "dont let me sleep too late"
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| yea so i know this girl right... yea shes great at making me happy... so what if the picture doesnt show it lol... ill fix that soon... proms tomorrow... and im going with that girl i know that makes me so happy... yessss
lol
im a happy kid
ah tomorrow night should be amazing to say the least... well... amazing for the company really... im not exactly the formal type of guy so we'll see how this goes for me...
dont you hate it how you get so used to typing on one specific type of keyboard, to where typing on any other kind is like trying to perform brain surgery? why must we get used to things?... why cant the human mind be open to all things, ready for the new and old?... why am i so random... maybe the hair dye is seeping through the pores in my head and causing numerous brain difficulties... come to think of it, i am feeling light headed... hahaha i thought only spray paint with a certain someone got to me like that ;)
so im kinda grounded from the computer for now... so ill keep this short... ill be back to update soon...i hope | | |
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